Wednesday, November 30, 2005

12:01 on 12/01

Just past the stroke of midnight, at 12:01, on the morning of December 1st, I head to a local pub and have a drink by myself. It's a silly little tradition that I started, mostly by accident, two years ago. Now wait a minute...that would mean tonight! Get out the party hat, it's almost Troy's Birthday!

eeek! the big 31
I wanted to do a party with the theme (damn those themes) of 31 Favorites (playing off 31 Flavors ice cream). However, since I'm not doing a party, here's a list of 31 of my favorite things (no order).

*TROY's FAVORITE THINGS...BIRTHDAY ADDITION*

31 Favorites

  1. Kafka Wines on Halsted
  2. LAN Rioja
  3. Ping Pong- I suggest the Sesame Chicken.
  4. Roscoe’s-an old time favorite...Joey rocks and who could live without Frida Lay
  5. Pritzker Pavilion in Millennium Park
  6. Mechai Viravaidya- a true testiment of the power of one. Mechai is an example that one person can change a system. Kudos to Thailand’s condom king!
  7. Soon’s Dry Cleaning on Halsted- They are so nice every time I bring in my dry cleaning. They know me by name, and the mother (Soon) always says “Thank yooooouuu” in her cute accent when I leave.
  8. Aria Salon on Lincoln Ave
  9. Madonna- after 20 years she still has it.
  10. Berlin Nightclub
  11. Jake Gyllenhaal
  12. Beautiful Life
  13. My computer- A Sony Vaio with a 250 Gig Hard drive. Size does matter!
  14. Sex in the City
  15. Chicago. This city rocks!
  16. MOMA
  17. Antonio Gaudi
  18. Grande Americano from Starbucks
  19. kissing in the rain
  20. finding money in my pocket that i didn't know was there
  21. running into old friends
  22. my mom and family
  23. http://www.stillspeaking.com/resources/indexvis.html (something about this commercial)
  24. pizza and beer at 2am
  25. Watching the sun rise or set
  26. Surface magazine
  27. exercise and running (doing the Chicago Marathon next year)
  28. the internet
  29. dancing and getting crazy
  30. Blue Moon (oh hell who am i kidding...any beer)
  31. closing my eyes and wishing on a shooting star

Personal Jesus

When I woke up this morning I didn’t have a clue how the day was going to unfold. By noon, I had already done a phone interview and by 2:00 I setup another interview for Monday. By the time I got to the salon, where I’ve been helping my friend Anthony in exchange for free haircuts, I was in a good mood. I was in desperate need of a haircut, so I begged Anthony to trim it and make me look wonderful—which he always does. After the haircut he invited me to go to the Allstate Arena to see Depeche Mode with him and his partner John. Umm, YES!! The show was amazing, and made me feel very nostalgic about my time in high school and back in Grand Rapids.

I’ve been a fan ever since my brother helped spark my interest in the band over 15years ago. I love their music and they always put on a great light show. My friend Patty and I would always hang out and listen to their music or talk about the lyrics. We especially liked ‘Somebody’, so when Martin L Gore took the stage on one of their encores and began to sing it my heart about melted. I love that song! I use to listen to it all the time when I was younger.

Although I had my camera with me and took some pictures/video, it doesn’t capture the energy I felt nor all and fun I had. Wow, tonight was just too awesome!

>DM Pictures

Late Post: Thanksgiving picts

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

Giving Thanks

Today I had lunch with my friend Gabe, and as we sat there reminiscing about where we were a year ago. I suddenly realized how grateful I was to have this little guy in my life. Despite all the crap I put him through he remained by my side and stood tall a first-rate friend.

I started to reflect on the rest of the events that have unfolded this past year, the people I pegged as doing me wrong, the challenges I faced, and the obstacles that have appeared month after month. How does one find ‘thanks’ in things they wish never happened? How do you go beyond feelings of regret and anger, and turn your attitude around in the other direction?

Is that the point of Thanksgiving? To be grateful for those less obvious things, like food, but rather moments in our lives and people that challenge or change our perspective? Is this time of year for acknowledging those who add value or to recognize the fortunes (big and small) that exist in life?

Will these hard times make the good times sweeter and more meaningful? Damn, I hope so! I try to keep in mind that obstacles and challenges in life do make you stronger, but they also can force you to explore outside your comfort zone. Yes, even the negative can force a spotlight on hidden blessings worthy of our gratitude. In a life lacking of change or challenges there can posses no progress. Without obstacles there is no achievement. With that in mind, I’m thankful for the opportunities this past year has provide me.

However, here are some of the other things I’m grateful for…

  • Memories of my grandma (miss you gram)
  • My family who, despite everything, have ALWAYS been there for me
  • My friends who’ve supported me both in spirit and a free lunch
  • The stairs in my apartment building… you’ve helped me loose 10 pounds
  • Being laid off, because it has made me a stronger person and helped fine tune my ‘gut reaction’
  • To those who pass-up my resume or decline to interview me, because it allows me to find something better.
  • For my part-time job at the Deuce
  • Heather S. for listening to me vent. I couldn't have made it without you girl!
  • For the little girl that smiled at me on the EL. You were so cute
  • For those who have broke my heart. You've only opened the path for the 'one' that won't.
  • That I'm in good health
  • That I’m not on the street (yet)

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

Barcelona Calling

After a recent conversation with a friend I learned of a program that might put me in Spain sooner than I anticipated. Most of the costs would be covered, but the draw back is that I would be spending most of my time with someone I didn’t know. However, I’m a pretty out going guy, and I’ve never really been shy around people I don’t know (for the most part). If all goes well, I might be leaving as soon as January or early spring. Crossing my fingers!

The Deadline

I’ve determined that if I haven’t found a full-time job by December 1 (my birthday), then I’ll probably have to ride it out until early February. Finding a full-time job during the holiday season seems to be the equivalent to a desert—nothing out there. I’m not sure what I can modify my job search for better results. Man, this is nerve racking!

Job Deadline: December 1, 2005

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

A New Vibe

Last night I trekked over to Borderline Music with my friends Mike, Josh, and Anthony for the CD release party of Madonna’s Confession on the dance floor. The store had giveaways, played Madonna, and got us all liquored-up on complimentary drinks. The place was packed, and I met a ton of new people.

I’ve been going crazy with my camera and taking pictures of everyone and everything. At the party I took numerous pictures, 3 videos, took snapshots of my friends at PingPong, and random things along the way. Here are some pictures from my little excursion with Anthony and the release party: [ confession cd release party or click on the picture ]

I called Madonna’s confession line (888-226-6337)…I confessed I was unemployed, but loved to have fun all night long.

After going to all these events, and a recent conversation I had last weekend with my neighbor friend Michael about a party he wants to throw, I think I really want to go into promotions. I like the idea of having parties, coming up with creative ideas, and managing special events.

Sunday, November 13, 2005

Florida Adventure

OK, so my trip to Florida was much different than I anticipated. I was looking forward to going out every night and really living it up, but in the end I found exactly what I needed…to slow down and reconnect with myself.

[click to see pictures]

Day One
I woke up early on Tuesday morning to head to the airport. The bus was running late, so I had to speed things up by taking a cab to the Addison blue line. When I got there I had to wait for a little while before a train came, which made me pressed for time. I finally got to the airport and was running really late. Of course I couldn’t get through security without running into an issue. Although the line was only 3 people long, the woman who was doing the security check decided that I was a terrorist and needed to be fully inspected. I had to take off my shoes, belt, and sweatshirt before she let me go through the gate.

Finally, I got through security and to my gate with 7 minutes to spare. My flight was pretty good, and weather was perfect. Three hours later I touched down in Ft. Lauderdale, where I grabbed a cab and headed to my hotel. On the way there I saw first hand the destructive aftermath of Wilma. There were trees 3-4 stories tall that were completely uprooted and moved, billboards twisted and throw aside like tinfoil, and buildings flatted by the intense winds of the hurricane. It was sad, yet fascinating.

When I arrived to my hotel I checked in, and then left immediately to explore my surroundings. I walked down Ft. Lauderdale Rd. and enjoyed the sun. My destination unknown, I passed the International Swimming Hall of Fame, which was cool because it’s where a lot of swimming and water polo events still happen. Not to mention the people running around in their swimsuits make the scene quite nice.

By the time I got back my friend was already at the hotel and we went to got something to eat in the hotel restaurant/bar. It was kind of cool, because it's underground and right next to the hotel pool. Through the windows you could see people swimming around. We finished and I head back to my room where I crashed.

Day Two
Woke up early and was at Sebastian Beach by 10am, and surprisingly there were very few people on the beach—maybe 10. I laid out for a few hours, and thought a lot about my life, being unemployed and how I’m going to fix it. I know it sounds cheesy and wannabe poetic, but sitting there by the beach, watching the waves and listening to the soft sounds of the ocean completely relaxed me and I felt at one with myself. I felt so relaxed I took a nap.

After my nap, I walked over to Café Del Mar where I had some lunch. The food was OK, but the view was amazing. I head back to the hotel, took another psuedo nap, and then did some laps in the pool area. The pool was pretty entertaining because there were a group of New England football fans visiting from Boston. They were loud, obnoxious and totally drunk off their asses. One stocky guy took of his shirt to expose a tattoo that I think was suppose to be his kids, but it looked more like Beavis & Butthead. They eventually settled down and went to their rooms, and so I followed they're lead and headed back to my room to get dressed to go out.

That night I went out to the bar and had a REALLY good time, despite the $25 cab fare. My first stop was this store called “Tops&Bottoms”, which is a cool little clothing boutique in the center of Wilton Manors. From there I went to a restaurant called Tasty Thai, which wasn’t so tasty and was kind of expensive. However, it didn’t seem to matter, because I was enjoyed listening to the Dutch guys sitting next to me talk in their native language. I jumped over to Java Boys, which is a cool little video coffee house. They play music videos on televisions all over the front room, and have a bunch of soft chairs to lounge in. I got a Grande Americano and plopped down with one of the local magazines. Before long I was chatting with Bob, who was an older gentleman sitting next to me. He then introduced me to Ed, who was this gorgeous Latino guy that was a very friendly and gave me the lowdown on all the clubs and what Ft. Lauderdale had to offer.

From the coffee shop I headed over to the bars, drank $1 beers, and dance my booty off. I even got to watch a local talent show, which was tragicly entertaining . I stayed for a few hours and met some cool people, and then headed back to my hotel. However, not before making a stop at 7-11 for some snacks…Honey BBQ twists, a turkey sandwich on 2-day old bread, a Pepsi, some little candies, and some other crap you don’t need at 3am

Day Three
The entire trip I was determined to watch the sun rise. REGARDLESS of being tired, I got my butt up to watch the sun come up. However, it was a complete overcast, so I didn’t see a damn thing. I went back to bed, and then got up at noon. The hotel bed was so soft and twice as big as the one I have back home, so I slept like a baby. Plus when I looked out the window all I saw was the ocean and palm trees. Totally awesome!

Just past 12:30 I finally got ready and headed back to the beach. Everyday I started my walk to the beach with “Cool” by Gwen Stefani playing on my iPod. It just seemed to fit the mood.

Thursday was an interesting day at the beach, because of all the hotties and some women who went topless. There were also some rather large folks, one guy in particular, who were sun bathing right next to me. I felt bad, because I could over hear some rude guys talking smack about them.

I got back to the hotel and headed down to pool area, where even more New England fans were hanging out. The pool was LOUD with everyone talking with their Bawstin accent. When my friend called me, I insisted he come join me and people watch. We sat there for about an hour ragging on all the white trash, pointing out the cute ones, and getting tipsy on over priced beer.

After we got bored and ran out of people to rag on, we headed to this fancy seafood restaurant called Fifteenth Street Fisheries that apparently only the locals seem to know about. Off the beat and trail, this New England influenced restaurant won my heart with great food and an amazing view. We sat by the window, and even thought it was dark I could still see the huge yachts and lights from the bridge. I had Monk Fish which is a Florida favorite, and a really flavorful pinot noir. The ambiance of the restaurant was kind of kitschy, but I loved it.

My friend drove me home, we said our good-byes and I headed back to my room…well, that was before I heard a band playing in the other room adjacent to the lobby. I walked over, where about five people were hanging out listening to a cover band. I sat down at the bar and started to chat with the bartender. He told me about all the New England Patriot fans who were in town, the damage he had from the hurricane, and Chicago. At one point he even mocked the Boston girls who come in and order margaritas: “How the hell can you forgot the R…’I want a maga-ita” he said. Hee hee, I crack up everytime I think about our conversation. Man, that guy was cool.

Then this guy from Cincinnati came in. He was drunk off his butt, slurring, and ripping on the football fans. He sat right next to me and kept trying to talk to me. He told me he owned a $15…no $20…no$40 million dollar company back in Ohio, and that he travels “all over the world…all over the world…mmkay.” He was messing with the bartender too, and would drunk whisper to me “this bartender sucks” as the bartender was standing right in front of us. I just sat there smiling as the bartender shook his head. I even got in a scattered discussion about George Bush, the medicinal usage of marijuana, and the economy with this guy. He wished me luck with finding a job, and asked me to go back to his room and smoke ‘weed’. OK dude, you’re just weird. I declined his offer, he made a puckered smirt, and then stumbled off. After he left I sat there with the bartender and ragged on the guy while I finished my drink.

Back in the room, I finished packing, watched a little TV, and fell asleep.

Day Four
Friday morning I got to the airport in plenty of time, boarded the plane and headed back to Chicago. Everything went so smoothly, and even on my ride on the EL I was completely at ease. I had my music, Grande Americano, and I was happy. I felt recharged, and my spirits rejuvenated.

Monday, November 07, 2005

Tunes by Association

I was walking around my hood today thinking about my trip tomorrow, then I over heard A-HA’s Take On Me playing on a loud speaker. Every time I hear that sound I think of my brother Shannon and when I was in middle school. Then I started thinking of other songs that remind me of people or places, and this is what I came up with (Granted I’m sure there’s more, but this is a good start):

  • Theme song from ‘Transformers The Movie’ = When I use to think I was secretly a robot and played with my Legos on the second step in my living room wearing nothing but my Underoos.
  • Monkey by George Michael = coming back from his concert and having a drunk driver almost hit us on the highway in Detroit because he came across the median and into oncoming traffic. Our car later died, and we had to spend the night in a hotel in wonderful Detroit
  • Wake Me Up Before You Go-go by Wham! = driving with my dad to our cabin at Torch Lake...mid 80's
  • Eye of the Tiger by Survivor = My old swim coach Gary W would play this song during our last swim of the year. He was trying to pump us up for city finals.
  • Take On Me by A-ha = My brother, when I was in middle school
  • Anything early Depeche Mode = Patti R., my Latina friend girl who had a crush on me. She had black hair, black finger nails and wore everything black...until she discovered Morrissey. This was also back when I was a punk/skater dude in high school with long hair and Vans on my feet.
  • Anything Nine Inch Nails = when I use to host my own music television show. Man, I was a dork
  • It’s Oh So Quiet by Bjork = Heather M and I SCREAMING in the design studio in the Human Ecology at 2am when we had to pull an all-nighter
  • Ray of Light by Madonna = sitting in my apartment back on Abbott road in East Lansing, listening to her CD for the first time. I was blown away.
  • City of Angels by Goo Goo Dolls = Jack B, when I was back at MSU circa 1998
  • Music Sounds Better With You = Jack B and I in Detroit at Backstreet
  • Satisfaction by DJ Benny = My friends Ben, Dave, and I hanging out at Roscoe’s
  • Dirty by Christine Aguilera = my friend Ben
  • Save Me by Remy Zero = when I first met Enrique
  • La Tortura by Shakira = The Pink Party and Enrique, summer ‘05
  • Cool by Gwen Stefani = my friend Anthony S

What songs do you associate with people or places?

Sunday, November 06, 2005

From Rodan, over the Rainbow, to Berlin

In my efforts to explore more of Chicago, last night I ventured outside my hood and into Wicker Parker. It was with a bunch of my mo-workers from the Deuce to celebrate my friend Jonathan’s birthday. From one bar to the next, I found the night and myself getting crazier at every stop.

We started at this place called Rodan, which is this swanky hipster bar located on Milwaukee in Wicker Parker. I sat there drinking my Long Beach Ice Tea (similar to Long Island, but with cranberry instead of soda) listening to ambient music with a disco beat. The restaurant/bar had so much energy, and it didn’t hurt that hot people were everywhere you looked. I felt like I was visiting a different city or a stranger in a distant land. I was lovin’ it! As we wrapped up, I could feel peering eyes hovering over us like vultures ready to attack our table. Sure enough, the minute one of us got up, a stranger took our spot.

From Rodan we wandered over to a local WP favorite, the Rainbow Room. Imagine a big room with an eclectic group of people. The beer was cheap, the beats were freakin’, and the people were completely chill. I know it wasn’t her, but I swear Rachel Dratch from SNL was there sitting in a booth. I about spit my beer out when she started making this gnawing motion at one of her friends.

I totally dug the Rainbow Room, and even though last night was the first time really hanging with this group of friends, I felt completely at ease and welcomed. Maybe they felt it too, because the female of the group decided to showcase her piercings to me…all of them. Hee hee, oh boy, here we go.

After the Rainbow, we all crammed into a cab and flew off to Berlin nightclub. The cab ride was pretty interesting, but what exactly happened is probably best left out of my blog. CENSOR!

Now for those who aren’t familiar with Berlin Nightclub, it’s truly an experience. It’s one of my favorite late-night clubs to watch people, plus their Long Islands have a punch.

As we waited to go into the club, I could feel the energy creeping throw the door and into my body. We walked in, grabbed a drink, said hello to some friends, and hit the dance floor. At 2am, I was already tipsy, but ready to shake my bum. That I did! I love going to Berlin, because no one cares if you black, white, gay, straight, a man in a dress, or a girl wearing a studded choker. Especially on the dance floor with the music base dropping, everyone can jam out. It was there on the dance floor that I felt my soul letting go and suddenly nothing seemed to matter. I felt at home, and totally let loose. Even if only for a few hours, I was able to forget all my worries, that I don’t have a job, the stresses of life, and just get freaky.

I walked out fully charged, starving for pizza at Pie Hole, and completely exhausted. What a great night!

Thursday, November 03, 2005

Font-a-say-WHAT!

I've been working on a redesign for a friend's website and I needed some new fonts. I went searching on the Internet for one of my favorite font authors "Font-a-licious", instead I come across a website with some interestingly named fonts.

Now I know graphic designers and the artsy crowd can be crazy mofo's (and you know who you are), but some of the names for these fonts crack my shit UP!!! Step over 'Arial', these fonts have SPICE and they just don't give a F&@*:

  • Masturbator
  • That luvin' feelin (sexual positions)
  • 48 ways (ummm, use your imagination)
  • Porn
  • Group Sex
  • Fish Dicks
  • Cocaine
  • Queer
  • Gay Stars
  • Butt Smuggler
  • Fucked Plate
  • Fucked Olympia

Where's Tipper Gore on this one...HUH?!

Good Morning!

This morning I ran into someone I knew from a previous life at the coffee shop by my house. He asked me how I was doing...I smiled and gave him the standard “oh, good” reply, but truth be told I wanted to throw my coffee against the wall and tell him exactly how it’s going.

Fuck this unemployment, fuck IDES, fuck my budget, fuck people asking ‘how’s the job search’, fuck feeling like a loser, fuck my ex, fuck this third month, fuck not having insurance, FUCK being bored, fuck this small apartment, fuck this fucking shitty ass fucking blueberry muffin!

Yeah, that’s right, I’m feeling sorry for myself, and I’m bitter, but you know what you can do…mmmhmmm, that’s right.

That felt good...

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

War

The other night I went with my friend Josh to go see an advanced screening of ‘Jarhead’ starring my boy Jake Gyllenhaal. The movie is about the Gulf War from the perspective of a soldier, but here’s a better summary:

Based on former Marine Anthony Swofford's best-selling 2003 book about his pre-Desert Storm experiences in Saudi Arabia and about his experiences fighting in Kuwait. Jarhead (the self-imposed moniker of the Marines) follows "Swoff" (Gyllenhaal), a third-generation enlistee, from a sobering stint in boot camp to active duty, sporting a sniper's rifle and a hundred-pound ruck on his back through Middle East deserts with no cover from intolerable heat or from Iraqi soldiers, always potentially just over the next horizon. Swoff and his fellow Marines sustain themselves with sardonic humanity and wicked comedy on blazing desert fields in a country they don't understand against an enemy they can't see for a cause they don't fully fathom... Foxx portrays Sergeant Sykes, a Marine lifer who heads up Swofford's scout/sniper platoon, while Sarsgaard is Swoff's friend and mentor, Troy, a die-hard member of STA-their elite Marine Unit.

While I was in the snack line I felt a tap on my shoulder, and when I turned around I saw Jake (a former co-worker from my old store) standing there with a goofy look on his face. Jake, 18, use to be a seasonal floor stocker last year, but ended up staying for a few months longer. He’s a cool kid, and although quiet he was always friendly and fun to talk to. The line was backed up, so we stood there for a while just catching up. He told me that he was joining the Marines and they gave him free tickets to the movie. I could sense he was nervous, but excited about going to bootcamp. Regardless of my opinion on the politics of war and military, I wished him luck. I bought my stuff and headed into the theater.

As I sat there watching the movie I kept thinking about Jake, and wondering if he knew what he was getting himself into when enlisted into the Marines. Did his opinion change after seeing the movie? What were his thoughts about his pending military life? Then I started to think what my life would be like now had I joined the military at his age...in a way, I'm glad I don't know.